Ramana’s Eyes
I’m being drawn to open up a book that I once read, “Be as you are, the teachings of Sri Ramana Maharshi”, edited by David Godman. I don’t know, maybe it’s those peaceful deep set smiling eyes on the cover of the book, calling me in.
My brother-in-law, David Michelson, wrote a beautiful song about those eyes, “Ramana’s Eyes”.
I recall a time in my journey where I could not read enough spiritual books, could not listen to enough CD’s and tapes, could not obtain enough knowledge. I was always searching, searching for answers. I needed to know “The Truth”. I mistakenly thought that if I read that one sentence, then enlightenment would happen. I would miraculously awaken.
I finally realized that I was looking for truth in the wrong place. I was trying to find it in my mind instead of my heart. Here I was searching, going on this so called “journey”. And the truth was there all along. Staring me in the face, like Ramana’s eyes. The truth never left me. I left it.
I would read and read. Sit in meditation, waiting to wake up, trying to make myself silent. And Silence was already there. Awareness was always present. Awareness is always there. Awareness is, all there is.
I finally realized that there is no goal to reach, nothing new to obtain. All that was ever needed was a deep realization of what and who I am, what I always was and will be, what is always and forever. It finally sunk in. I am Awareness. How could I look for and try to obtain something that I already was, Awareness itself. It’s the big cosmic joke, trying to search for something that was there all along.
Now, as I look at those smiling eyes of Ramana, I can smile back at him.
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